GradNite 08 and Senior Cruise

What a great night it was. Well, let’s start things off. When Fifth Period ended, it was really sad. I was able to go to both of my fifth periods. :] Half of it was in Madden’s and the other half was in Japanese. Most of the time when I was in Madden’s class was just playing BomberMan with Jeg, and talking with Kristine. After that, I went down to Japanese and took the class picture for them. Man, I’m gonna miss both of those classes. Talking about Brawl, talking about everything. It was so fun, both of them. Home period, I was in Mrs. Miranda’s class talking with Rubie, Gianni, and everyone in that class. Well yeah. That’s about it. Went out to eat and what not, then yeah. McDonalds and Gianni’s dad driving us and what not. After we got to the Bus’s, I was pretty bored. Talked with KC for a bit and was dozing off and on. Our bus was pretty loud, but they were cool.

When we got to DisneyLand, we were all mingling with the other Buses and what not. We were so excited when we parked, and then we started to tilt the bus! Haha. Went in the back, and we were like, “To the left! To the Right!” And we kept moving it back and forth. It was awesome. Talking to Gianni and everyone else through the window since they were next to the Bus I was in. When we were finally able to go off the bus to DisneyLand, we were welcomed with so Fireworks! Yay! Downfall, it was such a long walk until we actually got in the park. Haha. Then, got welcomed with a line of being checked. The guy was on my ass for quite a while. jk. Well kind of. Haha. Met up with Gianni and Ej, then we entered the park! Yay! Finally. After so damn long. haha. The park was so crowded when we entered, and so much music. I liked it. :] We went straight to the Buzz Light Year ride, it was cool. Haha. Blastin everywhere and what not. I got 10000, and everyone else got like 40000+. haha. I was like, awww. xD When we finished with that, we scattered off to Space Mountain. The line so was so long! I think we waited an hour, I believe. See, what had happened was, we first walked over one chain. Then another, and then another. Next thing you know. BOOM! We’re down there already. Haha. It was awesome. Yelling Yak, yelling for the hell of it. Enjoying the hell out of the ride. The picture was funny. I looked so weird, and Ferlena looked so scared kind of, or like she was going to hurl. Haha. When we finished with that, we took a short break to get water for Ej, after crossing the huge ass square that was filled with people. That was sick though. Everyone was either dancing or watching Mickey on stage. Went off to Haunted Hotel, we couldn’t get out of the line when we were in the middle, and it was kind of dull. When we got in, the elevator part was kind of weird, and when it went dark and crap Rochelle got scared and what not. Then we went off inside it, with some story I wasn’t paying attention to with some weird pictures and what not that changed. Then we went on the ride finally. It was pretty dull. Not so freightening and what not. It was funny when Ej was in the middle all like, “Rodel! I Love You!” Haha. Then I knew what was happening. xD When we got off went to use the bathroom and what not, being amused by Ej. Then we lost Gianni for a second and we were all just standing there, and then Gianni found us. Went walking down past splash mountain line, and ran into a dead end. When we started walking back, it freakin smelled like weed. It was funny cause some white girls were like, “did it smell funny to you back there?” Went to the square again and danced a bit. Then left Gianni, Ej, Ferlena. Didn’t know where Alan and Rochelle were. Went back to the food place and mingled for a bit. Then I decided to go wander off again, and went to the Techno place. Awesome there. Went wandering again and saw Cassandra, Calvin, and uhhh…Calvin’s gf [I feel bad since she's in my fifth period] and stayed with them for a bit. Then left with Cassandra to Splash Mountain! Yay! When we were in line, saw Marc Arica[sp] and I was going to climb to get to the top and crap, but didn’t. Haha. That line was a good half hour. Saw my cousin when I got on. Haha. The ride was fun, didn’t get so wet though. The dip and picture I looked so bored. Haha. After the ride, went to go eat with Cassandra, and then yeah. Eventually met up with Gianni and everyone again when they went to get food. Then yaeh. Back at the Techno dance floor. :] But when i wanted to get in with G and Ej, freakin line. Rawr. So we just ended up going souveneir shopping. Bought a GradNite 08 sweater and a Jack Skelington hate. 64.95. Damn, 10 minutes i wasted that much. haha. Well, the rest of the night, just relaxed it off near the bathrooms near the square. Just watched as the morning started. Finally, we walked towards the bus. That long dreadful walk, where the legs where numb. Crows going home and what not. Fell asleep in front of the bus for a few minutes. Then finally we went on the bus, and yeah. Fell asleep on KC’s lap and got up occasionally to check where we were. Just slept on her lap most of the way though. When we got back at shcool, went to the auditorium, and fell asleep on a table. After that, talked with Lam for a bit then we were let out. My mom picked up Gianni, Patrick, and myself. Then yeah. Patrick and I discovered some good news while driving. :] haha. But finally, when I got home it was like 1120ish. Talked with twin for a while and then fell asleep somewhere in the middle of the conversation. Woke up at 350ish, and got ready to go to Amanda’s graduation.

Picked up Patrick, and then went to get Ferlena, but she decided not to go and she wasn’t home. I called Gianni a grip of times, but he didn’t ick up. Got Alan, and then onward to Gianni’s. Unfortunately he woke up when we were almost at his house. Haha. So we stayed at his house for awhile as he got ready. Finally, we went to the graduation. Took a while to get there, and traffic was horrible going the opposite way we were. Haha. Good thing it wasn’t there later that night. Anyway, got lost going there. Got there fine, but when looking for parking, I ended up on the freeway again on the way to Mexico. When we were almost at Mexico, turn into the dirt road and make a U-Turn off the freeway to the opposite way freeway. Haha. Then back on track. Looked for parking again, then a cop told us to drive to the middle school. That was pretty far. Finaly got parking, and took a school bus back to San Ysidro High. Tried looking for Amanda through the top, and I spotted her, then we tried loking for seats. My gosh, Alan was so violent that day. Attacking me with his keys and what not. I lost the bet with the pink wristband htough. :[  I accidentally ripped it off. Well yeah. Stayed the whole graduation and tried looking for Amanda after. Took us a good 20minutes. Then finally found her. Said Hi, gave her the graduation ticket for our graduation and yeah. DIpped after that. Didn't talk much. Yeah. The guys were disappointed in me. Oh well. Then when we were waiting for the bus again, it just so happened that she was behind us. Haha. Then yeah. Bus. Talk with Gianni, and yeah. Said bye bye to Amanda, and sped off. When we got out, so much traffic. Like DisneyLand, I cut a crap load of people. Haha. But my gosh, the stop light took like 30 minutes to change to green. It was pretty awesome though, this guy ran to press the button for ped crossin, and we put down our windows and started to clap for him. Haha. Then we were all yelling and saying we were so thankful. Hhah. He was smiling so much as he ran off, then boom. Sped off. I started to cuss as we entered the freeway cause Ithought I had to take a detour, but didn't. So I stopped. Just started to sing, and drive around 120-140. that was fun. Went to plaza to get Gianni's paycheck, then off we went. Went to McDonalds and made the most awesome menu. I got 3 Double Cheeseburgers with MacSauce. Tastes like a big Mac, but cheaper. After gianni tried one, he had an idea. Boom. It was done and we had McDonald's animal fries. :] We enjoyed that, left and I drove everyone home. When I got home I played Halo, then slept.

Now it is Friday the 13th. I woke up at 840 to go to school, and then yeah. Cut people again and got my Cap & Gown and 4 Grad Tickets. Saw Lam leave, but yeah. I was going to try and get the smaller prom pics, but she left right away. Neil drove me home after and yeah. I took a nap, got ready and left for the Senior Cruise. Visted Sensei with Mark Santos, and then we went to the bus. I fell asleep the way, and yeah. It was a nice boat. Pretty old though. Just ate, then walked around. It wasn’t as happy though. Drama and crap. :[ Oh well. Danced for a bit, then just watched everyone the last half hour. I forgot to get Edditha’s number for Jecedthel. Woops. Well yeah. After the cruise, fell asleep on the bus again and yeah.

I wanted to go out, but didn’t have  acar. With these last days of school, I realized how fast it went, and now I’m going to miss it. Sure am. I’ll create  page with an album of the past few days. I feel a bit teary, but meh. :[

A blank mind for an open person

Not really. I have been thinking alot lately. Not for the good either. It’s just so empty, not blank. Not only because this school year ends, but it feels as there are many people that I feel have been distanced over the last few months of school. Hell, I wish that it didn’t happen, but at least I got to tie old threads together to make a new one right? I’ve been thinking about taking Summer Classes at Cuyamaca and/or Grossmont. That means that I would start school in July, but a little sacrafice wouldn’t hurt right? But then again it is going to be the last time that I would actually be able to relax for a long period of time, I guess. Well kind of, not really. But I kind of want to enjoy it. There are alot of plans that I made with a lot of different people, and I kind of want to do them all. I might not be able to because of an issue with my mother and me driving so far away. Then again I think that I am 18, but then again some of my friends aren’t, and if something happens it’s on me. So it’s a win-lose thing, I guess. Thus, leading me to think of just going to school right away.

So graduation is just around the corner, and I have yet to step foot in the Japanese Class since Japan Fest. Kind of seems like I abandoned them, right? Well, maybe. I did disappear. Lunch I’ve been leaving the campus to go get lunch, and ditched once to finish eating, and just talked the day away. I should be doing my APCS Final right now, but hey I got a good three hours before I have to start getting ready for school. Just listening to my iPod instead of wasting computer space and burning it out. Haha. Well back to the Japanese Class thing, kind of weird how I just noticed that. Wonder what everyone else thinks. Kind of tired of being so damn selfish now that I think of it. I’m a pretty damn selfish person. I do things that I want and don’t really think of what others think, but then again I do what I think of how other people will think of me. Not sure of that made sense at all. I act differently around people, well sometimes. Peer pressure can pretty damn well get in my head and change what I think and my attitutudes, so that doesn’t really help. I feel bad if I don’t do something. Yep. Kind of hate it when that happens, but I enjoy it sometimes. Man, I drift away from subjects pretty easily. Kind of scattered, no? Anyway, I think I’m just going to end this subject here.

On another note, I wish that I could have told Ciara all of this while we were on the phone earlier. I’m pretty sure we would have such a good conversation. I wonder why I didn’t. I regret it, but there were other things on my mind when I was talking to her. One for example is the fact that I’m so scared of what to do when I’m with her now. Like, I’m confused on what she’s feeling, but at the same time I know what she feels about me, but at the same time I don’t. Man, that was a jumbled up sentence. Well anyway, basically I don’t know what she thinks. She confuses me. This whole week, we didn’t really talk that much. I miss  her alot. But lately, there have been these thoughts in my mind that tell me that she doesn’t have the same feelings for me anymore. Like she does, but they’re not the same as before. As in, it’ll lead into destruction soon enough. :/ And I’m so scared of that. I don’t want her to be gone. Oo~ Tears. I hate those. I’m going to stop blogging now.

I’m disgusted with who I am, that’s basically what I’m saying to myself.